five things i need to do and keep putting off.

1. read for film class.

2. edit articles.

3. three final papers!

4. internship applications.

5. painting(s)/writing(s).

every day i wake up thinking "today is the day i will do everything on my to-do list" and then i go to class until 5PM or then i work until 7PM or then it pours all day and i find myself in the same exact place: my desk watching law and order or at the gym watching law and order. though i'm proud of myself for reading a book (for class!) while i worked out today and i did my science lab, so now i'll reward myself with watching law and order and going to bed early. lucky for me, my first two classes are cancelled tomorrow so i don't have to be anywhere until 11PM. and then i have to work. it might be a long day. i really need to find the motivation to do all of this work because once nice weather rolls around, i won't want to do anything but lay in central park and sleep.

anyway, since i've last posted in here (don't worry, i've been writing in my real journal): i went on spring break (north carolina!), saw some great shows (rx bandits) and had some unforgettable times (jeff and ant were here last weekend, oh dear). the weather is supposed to be super nice tomorrow and for the rest of the week. i wish i wish i wish i had a bicycle! i miss riding a bike.

also since i've last posted all i've been listening to is: dead to me, shook ones, title fight and smoke or fire. it's all good. i feel like making mixes so i might do that tomorrow instead of the original list i wrote here.

finally, some peektures of the places i've been lately:

five things stressing me out.

1. make-up work for school.

2. LSAT article.

3. photo assignment.

4. reading/responding to e-mails.

5. sick.

i've been sick for the last week and it's made me want to never come back to school. i'll admit it: i miss being at home. i miss my dogs, my brother(s), my car, my bed. i love new york city but right now all it's associated with is school work. i don't have time to go on adventures. i don't have time to go to all the shows i want to go to. i don't have the money to live here comfortably. i don't have the money to do anything, really. this weekend was good, even though i was so sick and couldn't hear out of one ear and had a coughing fit every five minutes. i saw shutter island for free before it even came out. i saw kara dj and stole liquor from these annoying kids who showed up in my room. i went home on saturday, got lunch with danny, taylor and tina. showered, jeff came over (!) and we went to NEW FOUND GLORY which was awesome except really rough and i was already weakened by this damn illness and tons of meds. went to the diner after with mike, collette, mike's brother and his girlfriend (i miss diners). came back to new york on sunday for H2O which was probably the best show i've ever been to (yeah). even though i was still sick and still coughing and fell over once (lawl) but whatever. now i'm procrastinating doing allllllllll of the things i need to be doing night now. i'm skipping my history lecture to do a bunch of science labs that are due at 12:30. :| i want to skip my film class to come home early and not at 5:30 so i can get a head start on all my work. but i actually like film and i missed it last week because i missed EVERYTHING last week.

speaking of missing, add to the list: shooting film, cait, john (pictured) and delaware.

five albums i've been listening to lately that don't suck.

1. new found glory - new found glory: because i'm really excited to see the anniversary tour. plus this reminds me of 6th and 7th grade. plus i love chad gilbert. plus "hit or miss" and "sincerely me" and "dressed to kill" are in my top ten as far as nfg songs go.

2. we are the union - who we are: ska that i don't hate, probably because it's far enough away from ska that i can still listen to it.

3. lifetime - jersey's best dancers: classic. it's length perfectly coincides with my walk to and from campus everyday. not to mention i think most of the lyrics are really cute and that kind of stuff matters to me.

4. the misfits - misfits: i think the misfits are the ONE band i'm ashamed to admit i still listen to. only because they're everywhere and you can find the fiend skull printed on just about everything and i think that's kind of lame. i wish the quality was better (but that can be said for every misfits album) but a lot of my favorite misfits tracks come from this.. "where eagles dare", "she", "astro zombies", "horror business" and "skulls".

5. paint it black - new lexicon: this album has never sucked and i usually listen to it, but lately it's more listens than usual. i don't know why. probably because now i follow dan yemin on tumblr. lame.

five reasons i have a problem with NYU.

1. all they want is your money.

2. all they care about is your money.

3. you are nothing to them but $200,000.

4. i think requiring a double major with journalism is NOT about making sure i have a "specialization", it's about making sure i don't graduate in four years.

5. everything just sucks.

i probably wouldn't have spent $400 on 6 credits from seton hall if i knew NYU wasn't going to take them and instead require that i take all 16 credits of my language at NYU. it's funny that they were on the list on colleges that would accept seton hall credits. and it's also funny that my advisor told me these 6 credits that i already paid for would get me out of my language requirement here. turns out everyone was wrong. turns out i won't be graduating on time without taking either summer or winter classes (HERE, of course, since they rarely accept credits from other universities). i just want to drop out and get a job somewhere. this shit is really bringing me down. the worst part is i finished all of my finals for this semester around 10 AM this morning and since then i've been nothing but frustrated, anxious and nervous about my future in this place. something is backwards with that, i think. i just want to go home (so my parents can confront me about all this and yell at me like it's my fault) and sleep.

five things that were so new york about last night.

1. the kid who played "claus" in a series of unfortunate events was at a party at my place.

2. todd, joe, alex and i were on a balcony overlooking 14th street screaming "show us your titties!" at everyone who walked by. (a little more mardi gras than new york, but you get the idea)

3. the nypd were all over the lobby of my building at 3AM.

4. we listened to a song written by one of joe's professors about shoving waffles up someone's butt.

5. the last thing i remember is looking at my phone and it was 5:17AM.

this weekend was a bit ridiculous. i've been hanging out some new friends around here quite regularly and i'm enjoying it. and i'm still hanging out with my old friends quite regularly and i'm still enjoying it. there have been a few nights, like last night, where both of these groups came together and i was just happy. happy happy happy and a little tipsy, but who cares. right now i'm sitting indian style and very zen like on the second floor of a new coffee shop called birch. i'm looking through floor to ceiling glass into the lobby of a hotel and writing this. i think i'm going to come here every day of my life from now on to relax and write and read and sit on this same comfortable couch in this very same way.

five reasons i love thanksgiving.

1. uncle joe saying grace.

2. good stuffing.

3. thanksgiving shitshow.

4. seeing almost all of my bffs (cait was MIA).

5. driving on 22.

successful weekend, minus puking one night and not getting to see cait, but winter break is only 15 days away. weird to think about. cait's birthday is coming up very soon, i really want to impress her with the cake i'm going to make. probably not going to happen, though. unless i can figure out how to work that crazy shit she uses (fonton? fondon?). tonight i got almost nothing done except reading for journalism tomorrow (technically this was all i had to do, but i wanted to get a bunch of things finished). i did get to see a bunch of folks when they came over to eat dirt with us. so that was good. i think i'm just going to give up, take a shower, write a letter and watch always sunny and go to bed. i took the commuter train this morning at 7:30 and it was packed and gross. tomorrow in journalism i need to write in my journal, i haven't done that for the entire break. and i need to start my F.Y.E. paper. and i want to see russian circles tomorrow.

five things i want to accomplish this weekend.

1. declare my major/minor. thinking journalism/history with a minor in studio art.

2. drink a can of four loko.

3. organize all the pictures on my computer.

4. see my family.

5. finish all the homework i have to do for next week.

i need to stop sitting on my computer with my back arched and do something. granted, i have to do most of these things while sitting on my computer. it's a really nice day out (or so my dashboard says) and i really want to take a walk to adorned and see what's up over there. i also want to straighten my hair to see how it looks. you know, the important things in life. i should start my day by going to the gym, though.