five long weekend accomplishments.

1. quality time with cait.

2. saw tom gabel half naked.

3. bought tickets to see CHUCK KLOSTERMAN AND ROB SHEFFIELD.

4. good night last night.

5. went home for less than 24 hours.

cait came at the perfect time this weekend and i was so glad to see her and get that little bit of summer back that i've been missing. but when she left it made me miss her and britt and EVERYONE so much more. i love college and all of the people i've met, but there's always that part of me that wants to go back to mid-july when i'd get off of work at midnight and drive down the shore and be on the beach until 2am and watch are you afraid of the dark? and scream really loud and talk about death metal with dale and matt. things like that.

against me! made me feel so so so fucking alive and stuff. they played "we laugh at danger and break all the rules" for their last song and everyone climbed on stage and tom put his guitar down and everyone sang. and everyone was real, real sweaty but it was nice. that chorus. god. everything about that song makes me happy.

this week is really short. only two days of class and then a really good weekend/next week. thursday night becca, connor and i are going to see john greene! friday night kelly is coming into the city and we're going to hang out and then i believe i'm going to adam's for oktoberfest II. although i'm not sure about this. i want to see a lot of the people there, but (...) i'm just not sure. i know if i go i'll be sad. saturday i'd have to come back super early for parent's day here at college. i'm excited to meet everyone else's parents and siblings. on sunday, taylor is coming in!!!! and i'm going to art museums and dinner with her! that's going to be a really fun day. much needed. much.

I NEVER THOUGHT MONDAY NIGHT WOULD BE POSSIBLE, BUT IT IS. i just bought tickets for the stories in high fidelity pre-cmj launch party!!!! which basically features chuck klosterman and rob sheffield in the SAME FUCKING PLACE AND TIME AND I'LL BE THERE AND IT'LL BE LIKE WHAT I WANT MY LIFE TO BE LIKE. if that made any sense. i'm sooo excited for CMJ, but i need to find out about the two contests i entered so i can perhaps maybe get a free pass? but regardless, i'm volunteering at CMJ all next week! i'm doing a few panels and the info desk and get to be on club duty thursday night (though i'm not sure where i'll be yet). uuuugh, college needs to end now so i can get on with the rest of my life.

some other things need to end, as well. things that, once ended, will let me get on with the rest of my life. and i'm going to start posting in this everyday. even if it doesn't really say anything. 

five things i will do today.

1. take the 4 train for the first time.

2. go to the met (for the millionth time).

3. work on my writing paper.

4. pick up dana at penn station!

5. not care about people who don't deserve my time.

number 5 is TBD, sort of. i have come to two conclusions: (a) new york city changes people. (b) i didn't really know people that i thought i knew. i would like to think that (a) is the correct choice here and that once upon a time certain people were kind and caring individuals. it's hard, though, to just drop someone from your life that you honestly do care about. it's easier to drop them when they start treating you like shit, but it's still hard remembering that you deserve better. maybe i'm not making all that much sense, but in my head a lot of things are becoming more clear to me. it's that fresh new york city air! i will also credit the air for making me do more art and making me take more pictures. i've done a few sets of pixxx i've been remotely proud of. i've ventured into different mediums (watercolor!!! new favorite!!!) that i've found really neat. i bought a moleskin journal and try to write in it often. and i will try to write in here more, too. 

five reasons i don't update.

1. college.

2. homework.

3. classes.

4. clubs.

5. new york city.

i just feel overwhelmed by love, books and this city. i am overwhelmed by love in both senses of the word. i am in love with everyone i've met so far and the things that we've done. i am in love, still, with the people i came here with. and i am in love with somebody (maybe). i'm reading so many good textbooks as part of my curriculum. "it's so cool to be enlightened." right now, for example, i'm reading the quran. sort of. mostly i'm procrastinating reading the quran by updating this blog and listening to the loved ones.

there are so many things here to get involved with.

i don't know where to begin.

i would like to be more involved with sleep, though.

for starters.

five awesome things about NYU.

1. new york city.

2. my best friends/my new friends.

3. an awesome roomate.

4. the 15th floooooor!

5. hypnotists.

i love everything about here. college. you know, stuff like that. i'm not homesick, but i can't wait to start writing more letters and doing more art and maybe writing a few poems. this city lends itself to so much creativity. i haven't slept before 3am all week, but there's something comforting in my sleeplessness, because it reminds me of summer and being young. i get tired around 12:30 but get my second wind shortly after. i'm leaving here for the weekend, but i'm excited to return on monday and start my classes. i feel shitty because of something i haven't done yet (whoa, make that two things). but other than that.. life is good, also subtracting the fact that i definitely miss a lot of people from back home.

five things i just received from brianne!

1. vitamin water revive ("for hangovers").

2. chocolate chip cookies, chips ("for munchies").

3. top ramen ("so you don't go hungry")!

4. red bull ("for late night studying").

5. ultra ribbed troj ("for just in case ;)").

this college emergency pack was the greatest gift ever. it's so cute. there's even a mix to go along with it! how adorable. and cynthia gave me the cutest little picture collage with a note that made me cry. this is too weird. still, i'm not as sad as i feel i should be. i'm not sure when it will all "hit" me, but when it does.. i'm glad i have a few people to fall back on at my new home. i'm actually more grateful to have brian, dann, emily and becca than any of them understand.

the picture included is from boston! tonight i'm having a really romantic evening that consists of star-gazing, new york city, ben&jerry's, dashboard confessional.

five important 'college things' i still have to do.

1. buy bedding.

2. call the housing department about where i'm living.

3. buy school supplies!

4. pack up everything i own.

5. say goodbye.

and i'm going to add "buy 'time's up!'" as an honorary sixth thing to do. it's the greatest game i have ever played and i'll go out on a limb and say that about 1/3 of the time i've been awake in the last twenty four hours has been spent playing it. what else have i done?... i have been in boston and new hampshire for the last four days. that turned out to be a lot of fun and i was happy to see all of the people that i did see for one last time before i leave. i'm pretty sure i'll return next summer, but i can't be 100% sure. who knows where i'll be. i came home around 3:00 am monday morning and spent the day re-seeing 'pineapple express' (best) and shopping with cait. then tanj, julie, cait, britt, dann and brian came over and we stayed up all night (naturally). i'm going to miss them so much. yesterday was tie-dye/pants/girls night. perfect. we dyed sheets and our hair. punk rock. today i have a lot of misc. things to do before i go to cynthia's for a little party party. i can't believe i have to say goodbye to all of those people tonight. shit. tomorrow i'm hanging out with matt, dann and vanessa. i can't believe i have to say goodbye to them (minus dann), too. sarah is having a fun occasion party :) at hannah's that night and i would like to stop by there, too. i have to see how everything goes. friday i'm going to britt's to say goodbye to a lot more people. saturday me and katy are going to the city to take pictures of my new digs and stuff like that. maybe we can buy me some ray-bans. she teaches me how to be hip, luckily. otherwise i wouldn't have a clue. haha. sunday is "wafflestock" and then i'll possibly, hopefully take a ride up to john's to say farewell to him and beth.

too much, too much.

five artistic things i will do today.

1. finish/work on my "live young, die fast" painting.

2. go on a photog adventure.

3. take atleast two polaroids?

4. write a poem?

5. uh, get a macbook?

today is art day. i feel like i've done nothing artistic this summer, and i only have a few more days until i move into my new home on east 10th street. i gotta have something to make it look like a real new york apartment, right? things have been pretty relaxed lately. i spent a good portion of last week at the beach and played flip cup and thumper with my cousin and his friends. then we went to the beach and got chased around by the police at 2am. i no longer have a job. i'm not too worried about it anymore, because i need some time to myself the next few weeks. i want to see everyone before we all leave. not to mention i haven't done ANYTHING for school, so i might need to get on that. on thursday i leave for NEW ENGLAND and i'm so excited. thursday/friday i'm in boston and then new hampshire until monday. sometime next week we're throwing a hotel party. yeah, yeah, yeah. i feel like i've definitely lost touch with one of my best friends (annie) and that she pretty much hates me now. not sure why, since she was the one who caused the problems in the first place. it's a shame that she probably doesn't even want to see me before we leave for college. i have found a really great group of people that i've been seeing tons of lately, which makes me happy. next weekend i'm going to the prom house again (g street, holla), so hopefully i can stay an extra night and invite the whole crew down there. just to see everyone one last time before winter break (which, might i add, i'm allowed to stay in my dorm for.. so who knows if i'll be home the whole time. why would i not want to stay in ny?).