five cool things about shooting parties.

1. gift bags.

2. free things.

3. attractive people.

4. DJ sets.

5. it's a party!

last night went well. i got to the star lounge around 6:30 and ended up leaving around 8:30 because i ran out of memory on my camera and it was getting incredibly crowded. there were 750 people on the guest list. highlight of the night was that i spoke to josh madden for a little bit and i took his picture. anyway: here are some shots.

five things i've done to procrastinate my term paper on beowulf.

1. called both my parents three times each.

2. read "on politics and ethics" and did another paper.

3. ate trail mix.

4. updated my flickr with new pictures.

5. cleaned my closet.

i really have no motivation to do this. in the meantime, i finished every other paper due this week but i can't start the one that will definitely take me the most time. tonight i have a really exciting night, something more exciting than a paper. i'm photographing the women in music holiday party at the star lounge under the chelsea hotel. josh madden (brother of joel/benji) is DJ-ing and iron fist is doing the gift bags, so i hope i get one. and there's free beers and snacks and fun and i just get to go around and take pictures of everything and everyone. sick. i hope it's not a problem that i'm not 21, since it's a 21 and over event. but i'm working and not partying, so whatever. yeah. life. i go home in ten days. weird, but i'm really really ready to go. not for any particular reason other than i miss people a whole lot and i want to wake up everyday for a month and not have to worry about homework.

five things i hate about winter.

1. it was 19 degrees today.

2. i can't feel my face when i go outside.

3. it's already dark at five pm.

4. snow and cars and me don't mix.

5. i feel like i've mentioned this before, but no good shows happen.

the end of the semester marks the beginning of winter. i haven't documented things in here for a while. i got a real journal and i'm starting to write in that more often, which is still good. anyway, the end of the semester also marks the beginning of pandemonium. this week i have the following papers due: 4 pages on persepolis, 10 pages on beowulf, 5 pages on the israel/palestine conflict, 3 pages on thomas aquinas. and then i start the actual studying.. tomorrow night i'm shooting a holiday party for "women in music". i feel really legit about this. it's at some fancy place and there will be fancy people there and i'll probably feel out of place. on thursday, cynthia and taylor and coming in for the night!! i am really excited about this. OH! i also spent friday night at the RUT with sarah and it was insane, insane, insane. like my life lately. i don't know if winter break is going to slow anything down. OH! i had a giant party at my house and my room got trashed but it's quite alright now. anything else that comes to mind? not really. my new years resolution, by the way, will be the same as last: more letters, more art, more writing, live better. i'm getting ahead of myself thinking about new years. i'm going to write something right now and then read things about baghdad/middle eastern things and then write about ancient christian shit and then sleep and wake up and do things with my life.

but winter can be really pretty and sometimes romantic but always pretty.

five realities.

1. i'm losing money at the speed of light.

2. i'm a terrible college student.

3. my car is completely ruined and has no collision insurance.

4. we have a new president! finally! :)

5. i'm going to start trying harder.

nyu has obviously always been my dream school. now that i'm here, i feel like i'm living that dream (duh). except i've been thinking in real terms lately and it might be better if i go somewhere else that won't leave me and my parents $200,000 in debt. it's scary to think about. yes, barack obama wants to change the country and make college affordable for everyone. that's great. the reality is this won't happen. he will not help me pay for college or make it more affordable or just start handing people money. i'm very sick of amanda lorber (from MTV's the paper) because her of her recent facebook status (ooh, technology). it says: "rebuild, rebuild, rebuild! thank you america!" and previously: "can't wait for president obama to start helping america put itself back together again" and my favorite: "doesn't mind if all the white supremacist, 'values' voting, pig-headed reds hightail it to canada".  i could go on forever about that last one.. but here's the deal: am i glad that we finally elected a black president? fuck yes. it says so much about our country. however, people can't expect him (they couldn't expect ANYONE) to just jump into the whitehouse and solve all of our problems. it takes time. it takes money. there is so much potential for obama because of the dipshit we've had running this for the last four years.. but he can't save the world. we can't start saving the world until we're all willing to work together to benefit all parties. we can't start saving the country if amanda lorber is going to call republicans "pig-headed" and "white supremacist". ugh.

but enough about politics, because i'm very apathetic to all of it. whatever happens, happens. long story short: i've been thinking about going to the new school because i could probably get more money there and take more classes that i want and feel like i'm getting a real education instead of reading the same books i read sophomore year of high school. i don't know. it depends on whether or not i get a JOB soon. i have to call virgin megastore today and start working there like 30 hours a week. i would. and then at fye this winter i would like to work a lot. atleast 15 hours a week. ugh.. money. why do you have to suck so badly?

but enough about depressing things! HALLOWEEN WAS SO GREAT HERE. THE ELECTION WAS EVEN BETTER. out until 3AM on a school night rioting. oh goodness, i never want to leave.

five songs that are good to hear when i'm angry.

1. the press corpse - anti flag

2. lax - big d and the kids table

3. pretty girls - against me!

4. psycho killer - talking heads

5. why don't you get a job - the offspring

i've been pretty angry lately because people have been quite bitchy. i miss my friends from home because no one cares and no one is a bitch and etc etc. i miss hanging out in my backyard or in parking lots or at the beach. i love new york city, but i miss having my best friends around (besides dann/he's still great). i want people to come visit me like every weekend. these next three weekends will be amazing. next weekend i'm going to DC to have fun at american university. megan is leaving, sarah may be leaving. i'll be staying with either sarah or jess and i'm excited for a night out in a different city with different people. the weekend after will be amazing. PHILLY. thursday night i'm staying with katy, friday night i'll be at SJU with katie/rachel, saturday night at matt/dale/[all the other people that live there]'s with CAIT. the weekend after that is thanksgiving break.. so hopefully someone will have a huge get-together. i may have to start planning that right now. yeah, so i have an essay to write and four copies of it to print by 8am tomorrow. fuck my life.

five reasons cmj is already awesome (and it's only day 1).

1. cluck klosterman and rob sheffield and dan kennedy reading last night.

2. getting to meet a lot of attractive bands to give them artist badges.

3. free stuff.

4. free $250 badge.

5. free shows!

except i've dedicated tonight (first night of cmj shows) to studying. how lame am i? but it's the only day i've got before my two midterms on thursday. sigh. i can't believe it's already 9:33 at night? i have a long, long day ahead of me tomorrow so i might actually go to bed early in order to wake up at 7am and go to class at 8am and do panels from 11am-6pm and possibly go to:

- margot and the nuclear so-and-so's at the bowery ballroom at 12:15am

- mirah at highline ballroom at 10pm

- COHEED AND CAMBRIA AT TERMINAL 5 AT 8. but i'll probably go over there right after my shift is over and not go to anything else. ha.

manoa, emily and i have started a "list of free and fun things to do" which will be taking up a lot of my normal useless time. some of them include: scrapbooking, selling hemp bracelets, sitting on a streetcorner one day, making a movie, scavenger hunt! yeah, so, that's all. got a letter today. it was sad but beautiful because the person i got it from is probably the strongest, most beautiful person that i know.

five awesome people that i have been or will be in close quarters with this october.

1. STEPHEN COLBERT.

2. john green!

3. hank green!

4. CLUCK KLOSTERMAN.

5. ROB SHEFFIELD!

i was lucky enough to go to a taping of the colbert report and learn that stephen keeps a fucking knife in his desk. how badass. i have a new found fascination with all things that are john and hank green. unfortunately, i've only read "looking for alaska" so far, but i want to be a part of everything it means to be a "nerdfighter". john signed my book with DFTBA (don't forget to be awesome) and i don't plan on forgetting that any time soon. and of course next week i'll be in the company of CHUCK AND ROB also known as the two greatest authors that i love the most. that sentence didn't really make sense, but it's all good. an abundance of awesome people just made their way into our room to watch the office (another new obsession).  thurmon brought back the book "learning to love you more" from LA and i plan on doing everything in it and blogging about it. one of my resolutions was to write in here more but right now nothing is making much sense so that might be how it goes from now on. i've forgotten a lot about this one guy who makes me not love myself, so that's where this will be going from now on.