Five New Lists

Five Reasons 2007 Was Ballin'

1. Car! And license to drive it.

2. Acceptance.

3. I got a new boss and he's quite boss.

4. Nikon D40.

5. All times with friends were good ones.

Five Favorite Albums of 2007 (No Order)

1. New Wave

2. Magic

3. Ga Ga Ga Ga Ga

4. Wincing the Night Away

5. Remains (it counts! sweet DVD included)

Five Things I'm Looking Forward to in 2008

1. Lots of good shows (January alone is Whole Wheat Bread, HWM and The Lawrence Arms).

2. Alkaline Trio release!

3. Chicago (I'm doing it).

4. Turning 18/Clubbing as soon as it happens.

5. Moving to the big NYC.

Five Things I've Already Done in 2008

1. Played "Kings" and it became my new favorite games.

2. First Red Bull (and I needed it).

3. Stayed up until 4am watching "movies" (lololol).

4. Drove with the windows down.

5. Major headache.

Five Things I Hope to Accomplish in 2008

1. Good health.

2. More art! Giant canvas!

3. Mixtapes on cassettes.

4. Tons of pictures of everyone and everything.

5. A better job of keeping in touch.

Rang in 2008 nicely.  Instead of sleeping like I should have today, I went to the mall/movies, uploaded pictures, uploaded CDs, Twilight Zone marathon, sank the Pod and will now begin my homework so I can get it over with and start a new painting.

Five Most Played AM! Songs (And For Good Reason)

1. Don't Lose Touch

2. We Laugh At Danger And Break All The Rules

3. Pints Of Guiness Make You Strong

4. Untitled (from the Acoustic EP)

5. Reinventing Axl Rose

I like lyrics that mean something and that you can shout out of your car window. IF THIS GM VAN DON'T MAKE IT ACROSS THE STATE LINE WE MIGHT AS WELL LAY DOWN AND DIE! BECAUSE IF FLORIDA TAKES US, WE'RE TAKING EVERYONE DOWN WITH US! WHERE WE'RE COMING FROM WILL BE THE DEATH OF US! You know, things like that.  My vacation was anything but relaxing and fun.  It was quite a disaster.  I got bit on the arm, fell on ice, read no books because there was no light, had no stamps to send my letters and left a day early.  I can't wait to get my camera and start taking pictures.  I really wish I had it for the next few days worth of activities before school starts again.  Winter vacation felt like nothing at all.  Time didn't stop at all.  Everything just kept going and going and there was no rest, for the weary or anyone else for that matter.  I still have to do math homework and read that self-important bitch Jane Austen.  I need to clean out my car, room, backpack, life life life.

Five Freshly Burned CDs

1. 8 Diagrams from Wu-Tang Clan

2. NBC Presents: The 60's

3. Stone Cold Rhymin' from Young M.C.

4. The Lemonheads from The Lemonheads

5. Pretty Much The Greatest Christmas Mix Ever from Rohan

Seriously, Rohan really did make pretty much the greatest Christmas mix ever.  That's why I didn't even try (and I don't think John did, either, even though he kept asking me where my great mix was).  We ran into each other in the parking lot (it was sort of planned.. I was coming to pick it up/he was going to his car to get it) and it was fun.  I'm excited to see everyone tomorrow.  Little Johnny (right) and the Carlucci's are coming, which is something special.  Yesterday in the city it started raining really hard.  I wish city rain would happen to me more often, it smelled good and even though my shoes were soaked, I barely felt wet.  I've also concluded that Hoboken is the best way to travel.  Transportation cost $8 to park, $3 for a MetroCard plus gas money.  Compared to the $17 it takes for the train.. Cool.  I might have to live in Hoboken for a little while.  I snapped some really good pictures.  I wish they would just upload onto the computer.

Merry Christmas! It's been Baby Jesus' birthday for an hour now.  Matthew S. Lax is coming over for the holiday so it should be quite fun.

Five Favorite Holiday Songs

1. Run DMC - Christmas in Hollis

2. Guster - Donde Es La Santa Claus?

3. Band Aid - Feed the World (Do They Know It's Christmas?)

4. Mighty Mighty Bosstones - This Time of Year

5. Away In A Manger

I'm doing everything last minute, as always.  Bought some gifts for Dennis this morning, but that's all.  I usually bake and paint everything for everyone.  Gifts don't matter that much.  I asked Santa for a Nikon D40, but I think if I get it I'll feel really guilty because it's expensive and I'd rather buy it myself.  Anyway.. Today I'm going to the city (hopefully getting some nice PJs somewhere for the NYE partay) and to my dad's house for "Christmas Eve".  Since he doesn't come over for Christmas morning anymore, we go to his house on the 23rd for Christmas Eve and the 24th is Christmas morning.  You know?  Haha.  I have to work on the fam's annual Christmas DVD!  Last night Dann, Annie and I went to Westfield in all it's pre-Christmasy glory.  So cute.  We went to John's house and hung out with Beth and the dog.  So cute.  We took a lot of funny pictures that were totally indie and scene.  Hahahah.  We layed in the middle of the busy street, really long exposures, black and white, coffee cups.. The whole thing.  But my camera, as always, doesn't work with my computer anymore.

Five Terrible Things About Pre-Christmas Week.

1. Teachers still think we're paying attention.

2. Every class has to get ONEEE more test in before we leave.

3. "Well, since you have the next week OFF, I might as well give you 102,923 projects..."

4. All of my nights have been dedicated to making Christmas gifts.  Homework is put off until Block 2 Journalism.  But hey, it gets done, right?

5. Slow. Slow. Sllllllllllllow.

Slow, like a row of l's or a row of i's.  When you type a row of l's or i's you press the button forever, yet get nowhere.  Nothing like a row of w's or v's.  All of my weeks thus far have been w's.  But now, when it counts, I get an l week.  Let me free, let me run free.  I'm craving iced tea so badly right now.  I've never wanted to consume a beverage this badly in my life.  My throat is wanting.  Wanting.  I've been drinking bottled water but everything about it is wrong.  Everything.  If I were motivated enough, I'd run out to King's right now.  Now.

Wanting everything now.  No delayed gratification, no patience.

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I can't even wait for that.  I copied and pasted.

Five Cool Things About Whole Wheat Bread

1. They have the greatest shirts ever. "Dirty South Punk Rock" and "I Love Black People" and "Fuck the Police".

2. They do the Soulja Boy dance on stage.

3. "Why is it that you white people are always on that show 'When Animals Attack'?"

4. They rock out and rap while doing so.

5. Before they go on stage, the audience chants "Whole Wheat Bread ain't nothin' to fuck wit!"

Honestly, WWB was one of the best acts I've seen in a while.  Big D was okay, but WWB had tremendous energy and the crowd loved them.  Also, Brain Failure.  A band from Beijing. So good, even though at times I couldn't really understand them.  I like ska shows a lot, I don't think I go to enough of them.  After the show we went to Time To Eat, where the kids behind us were listening to our very awkward conversation.  We laughed a lot after that.  It was a really good time.  Cynthia says they have another show in January... More: Today I managed to draw out all of my Christmas presents for my work folks.  Now I just have to paint them all and stuff.  Ah, there's a lot to do in a short week.

Five Lyrics About This

1. "I just want you to know I have a major crush on you.  I'd take you to Las Vegas to do the things you want to do.  I'd even have Wayne Newton dedicate a song to you.  I only wish that this could be."

2. "I know I'll always stop and see you.  We'll run into each other's fucked up lives.  Yeah, I guess, although it tears me up inside."

3. "I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say.  I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be.  But if I had to walk the world, I'd make you fall for me. I promise you, I promise you I will."

4. "If we're never together, if I'm never back again.. well, I swear to God that I'll love you forever."

5. "You're all that I need, though I know that it never can be, I'd be pleased to post your decrees, to fall at your knees, to name all your streets and to sit down and weep when you're carried back through them and set down to sleep and to lie by your side for sublime centuries until we crumble to dust when we're crushed by a single sun."

okay, i always fall for the wrong people at the wrong times and everything about this is just wrong, wrong, wrong but it feels right. it feels all right. i'm feeling alright. i just want to tell him. while we're just sitting/standing there doing nothing or when we're outside and he's smoking or when he's talking to me about music. because i love those three things about him. i love nothing and cigarette smoke during the winter and music. that's all. i miss him when i'm not around him and i miss him when i am around him. it's a perpetual fucking clash between all of my emotions all the time. no one should ever think this hard about anything. i don't put this much effort into my school work.

was this too much?

and all i keep thinking about is:

someone come home.